I sometime feel like i should have commited suicide a long time back.But it seems like it desnt work out someway!! It was another so called pathetic incidents that keep on happening with me.I was on for a walk after my dinner a few nights back.It was obvious,i was out for a dinner in the back market since most predictably i again missed my insti dinner.From being a so called popular(rather worthless engineering college),I couldnt give up my habit of bunking classes!!
Now what happened,as i was in my royal fiesta,I went to a paan-thela for a cigarette.The man sitting behind the window was almost of the age of my dad.Now,whatever hopeless i may be,but something inside my head started asking if i was goin to buy a ciggi from my dad?? Shit man!! But wait,the worst part was yet to come!
Some how i managed the guts to ask him for a milds(yes,i felt like an idiot,but given the habit and the false ego that i had by birth,i was still there).The elderly man looked into my eyes and gave a smile!! Now what was that?? "How are you beta??" Shit!!What was that supposed to mean?
I asked him "do we know each other??"
"ya you keep on coming na!!" (well i was there for the first time i tell you!!)
O..lucky me!!
Now thats not the end.
as i took the ciggi in my lips,he lit the lighter for me.Man,I tell you,it was hell out there!
Such a guy that i was,i felt the cigarette shivering in my lips,consequently missing to lit it up in the first hit.
"uncle i will do it myself"
"Nei beta,i am here na"
Finally i managed to lit it up,and rather rushed out of the shop.After few steps I looked back at the man in a weird state of mind.
He was looking at me with a smile!
The cigarette tasted stale!!